Up-Date!

Oh the house, it is still a work in progress. I had a very unreasonable idea of how long and how much money it would take to re due my house. I am so thankful that I have a home at all! I just have to remind myself that getting that Potter Barn bedroom outfit is not a necessity, even thought I would love to have it! The kitchen cabinets should be done within the week and I will be able to organize it to my liking. I will put up some pictures as soon as the cabinets are up.
I am upset about my last doctor appointment. I still don't have a diagnosis however Dr. Hylland is confident that it is something autoimmune but, doesn't know what yet. When I first saw him in September he prescribed some drug (can't remember the name of it but it is used a lot for people with gout) that made me so sick I couldn't take it. He then prescribed plaquenil for me the week of Thanksgiving, the next two weeks I closed on my house, moved, flew Kate in and, had mid-terms, I just didn't want to take the chance of it making me sick, I was to busy! Then the first week of December I has a retic count done ( it counts your immature red blood cells) and mine is three times as low as it should be. One of the side effects of plaquenil is the decreases production of red blood cells so, I called to ask if it was still okay to take it. Three weeks of playing phone tag I was told take it and they will check my counts at a later date so, I started it that day. When I went to see him yesterday, he could see definite swelling in my joints. Dr. Hylland informed me that if I would have started taking the drug when he told me to I might not be in this situation! I explained to him why I didn't he interrupted me and said "listen dear it is your life". He also felt the need to tell me that I had gained 7 pounds sense the middle of January, which I found funny because my clothes are becoming looser on me. He said that I am doing nothing for myself by being over weight like this, that I need to think of food as poison to my body. He asked me if I was a emotional eater, I told him yes to a point but, I also have been living without a kitchen for a few months. Dr. Hylland told me that he would like me to see a psychologist who specializes in eating disorders considering I can't seem to get my weight under control on my own. (WHAT is he F'in crazy I know what my problem is, I know how to fix it, it is just doing it) He has never addressed my weight before maybe if he would have before I wouldn't have been so flabbergasted at his comments and, does he think I don't know I am fat HELLO!! He would like to see me in six weeks and he expects to see progress in my weight loss. I feel so belittled and humiliated if that doesn't make me drive through Wendy's for a frosty I don't know what would. Food is my friend, if I have the weekend off and don't have anything planned I may not take to anyone for 2-3 days, it fills up that void, my lonely spots! I just feel like he could have approached it differently. I am so pissed!! Just for the record when I got home I weighted myself and I have lost 4 pounds sense before Christmas I think the nurse read the scale wrong or wrote it down wrong. Anyone have any diet secrets to help me lose forty pounds in six weeks?