Thursday, August 28, 2008
Trying to clear things up
Okay 1st of all, thank you all for the kind words. I think maybe I should try and explain myself a little better, I am not always great with explaining what I really mean. I never ever meant that I wanted to harm myself or, kill myself. Julie take a breath....ahhh. I have just had a really bad week, I hurt so bad that night I wrote my last blog, going to the E.R. did cross my mind however, I would have been humiliated. So I guess what I really meant to say, I just don't know what to do to change my life. I feel like I have paid my dues except instead of life getting better, it is getting worse! Truly, I don't know what to do to fix it, I am at my wits end. Okay 2nd more health news, my ANA is positive so they did a titer on it. The ratio of the titer should be 1 to 80, my is 1 to 1280. My Rheumatoid factor is negative so, Dr. Davidson is thinking it is lupus. She does not want to give me that diagnosis, with out ruling everything else out so, off to the Rheumatologist I go. In the meantime I have to find someway to get though the pain so I can sleep a hole night though, benadryl and tylenol are not working. Also I have to find a way not to be so snippy and edgy at work. Any ideas?
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I know you own "The Secret". Dig it out, girl!! And pray. That always helps me.
Read and pray. Read and pray. Read and pray. And a good bitch session w/an awesome co-worker will get the excess stink off of work too!! :)
P.s. i'll be the educator for ER soon!!
Honey I am breating but you did have me a little worried I will admit but I know you are a tough chick with alot of spunk so whatever is thrown your way I know you will get through it. I will pray for you that your health will improve and ya know sleep deprivation can lead to some depression. I'm just saying..... Until you can sleep through the night maybe you should talk to your doc about some "happy" pills. And If ya want to have a throw down in the E.R. count me in I bet we could put on a good show for them.Give everyone something new to talk about....Ha Ha Ha
well...know that your friends love you very much and are always here for you no matter what. i had no idea this was going on with you and i am mad you haven't shared this...smile, pray and know that we are all here for you. love you tons...
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